"Are you in a band?"
09/06/2002
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"You are still my 100%'er. I have always found you to be very cute, oh so sexy, and extremely beautiful. I am proud of you and I think you'll make a great dentist one day. It's hard to imagine not being able to wake up next to you, and it can bring me to tears thinking I won't be able to one day. Whenever I see a lamp post at night, I'll always remember our many moons. Applebee's is our restaurant. "The circle" is our dance. Tetris is our game. Running is our song. Head Automatica is our band. Nobody will ever give me the same butterfly feeling that you once did, or come close to the passion that we once had. I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to tell someone else that they are my soul mate. Five years ago you asked me if I would choose destiny or chance, I still don't know the answer to that question. I'll never forget the dates December 8, 2003; June 29th, 2004; and January 12, 2005. Chicago was the best birthday present anyone has given me. Head Automatica was the best show I've ever been to, because of you. We are the best rollerblade/roller skating duo ever, hands down. Tummy rubbing is our thing. Cuddling with each other is what we do best. Wednesday mornings were once my favorite day. One kiss I'll never forget is when you had just gotten home from Romania and you were on the bed with your ipod, Sigur Ros was playing, we both had an ear piece in our ear, and we kissed non-stop from beginning to end until the song was over. You taught me that being in the same pajama bottoms together can only lead to good things. We used to talk for 7+ hours straight every night online, I still have a lot of our conversations, every single e-mail you've ever sent me and every single note you've ever written. Quincy is your name and Moto is mine, nobody will ever understand this -- not even us. I have a high school planner that I will never throw away. You once trusted me when I told you to get a perm, I still think you hold that against me even though you looked lovely as ever. I went to prom with you twice, the first time I cried out of sadness, the second time I cried out of happiness. The best pick up line ever will always be, "are you in a band?" I can now say, in confidence, that I've seen more HGTV than any guy my age. Watching complete seasons of TV shows for hours at a time in bed with you until 4am is the best. Eating pancakes on an air mattress while watching Family Guy for a month is how we do. Holding your hand while you slept and I drove for six hours was worth every hour of numbness. Getting lost with you was frustrating at times, but figuring out how to get un-lost together always made me really happy. I once believed you were the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I still believe it. Something I'll never do, is wonder what it would be like if I have never met you. Something I'll always do, is love you." - M, 2007
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This is a new garden over old flowers.
And old makes old jokes take on the feel of the lore.
And new lips are cradled sense of humor,
So don't waste wishes on him.
Wish that one day they'd figure out how to shrink stars and I could keep one in my bedroom.
And wish that me and her could grow old together.
And wish that in my next life I come back as a tiger.
These are fun wishes. In about seven minutes you can start.
'Til then, you'll just listen to the radio from seat's edge.
As if then it's the look on your face. As if,
as if then you'll matter,
And then I can't wait.
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07/26/2011